oh yeah baby

whole ambien at 1030. slept like i was dead. i love it.

sleep

i can't sleep without meds. it makes me kinda sad. i'm soo tired. i'm going to my moms today to pawn the kids off. i'm bringing a book. what i think would make more sense is if i would just go to bed at a normal hour and take the damn pills. for some reason i think staying up will make me more tired and then it's too late to take a pill so i go to bed. and NOT sleep. i might cry today.

realized

i so do not give a DAMN about politics.

summer

i never have any clue what day it is. i am burnt. i haven't done laundry in days. my garden is gorgeous. i found a swim suit that looks decent. i am wearing skirts and tank tops. i love summer.

boobs

i know. i paid for them, i should be happy. they are much better than they were. but OMG these things are huge! i saw them in a picture. not great. (taking pictures for workout purposes) the surgeon made them 2x bigger than i wanted and they are crooked. but, as a side note. i also looked at the before pictures. those were uber nasty. ok. done venting. now i will go about my day.

ugh

i hate being so affected by the weather

clean

mabel told me the other day that *it's so nice to have clean stuff* this was after i spent 4 hours cleaning her room and while i was gutting the van. i tend to agree. it is nice to live in clean spaces.