sleep

i can't sleep without meds. it makes me kinda sad. i'm soo tired. i'm going to my moms today to pawn the kids off. i'm bringing a book. what i think would make more sense is if i would just go to bed at a normal hour and take the damn pills. for some reason i think staying up will make me more tired and then it's too late to take a pill so i go to bed. and NOT sleep. i might cry today.